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wtf this is so weird. you've been gone for a week but it feels like so much longer. I swear. I hate it! like, when I looked out at your balcony that we shared so many memories in, it was all empty. No big comfy seat that we used to sit on with Tracey and your dad at night and laugh till we couldn't breath. No T.W. No exercise bike that was never used. And none of the lady bugs Tracey sent from New York that stuck on your window (I still have my flower ones somewhere.) Dude. I wonder who resides there now. If I ever go into their apartment it will be SO weird, I bet they can't arrange furniture the same way your dad did. Or decorate thier wall the same. Or have a really awesome cloth thingy posted on the roof with thumb tacks. I am having trouble digesting all of this. I practically lived at your place. Seriously I'd always come over for dinner and your dad made the best japanese curry EVER, not to mention the brownies, and the chocolate chip cookies, and the honeydewmelon popsicles. And going grocery shopping was the best. I can't believe the new grocery store that's by your new place (234567765545678 AND ONE MILES AWAY!) doesn't havethe TOLLHOUSE chocolate chip cookies. they only have PILLSBERRY. seriously? oh! and let's not forget that time when we all went to fentons hella late in our PJ's. That was so fun. We are some of the funniest people EVAAAA. Our camping trip was the best ever ever ever, I totally remember the play you me and henry made up to perform at the campfire "Little Green Riding Hood" :] And summer time was ALWAYS so fun. Every year when it gets hot you ALWAYS call me like 20 minutes after school to go swimming and then we swim until like 5. and then we swim every day in the summer, and have BBQ's, and pool parties, laugh, build forts, tan, get splashed, eat, and then we'd all go to your house to like watch a movie and eat dinner. And this was our lives like ev-er-y day. AND MOVIE NIGHTS! Our projected screen on the wall behind the building, and there was like 20 of us, we'd bring like MATRESSES, and FOOD. and it was freezing but we had blankets and it was so fun. AND all those conversations we had with Tracey! and how we were the ISLAND GIRLS! and all those times we went to KABOOM. and the art and soul festival. and the COUNTLESS games of hide and seek tag that took place in the COURTYARD with Marcelo and Federico and whoever else was around. the times on bart when we would hang on those things that were like monkey bars and then the other people on bart would join in and we'd have contests to see who could hang for longer with people we didn't even know, but it was so funny. the numerous trips to themeparks like great america and santa cruise. yeah so I feel extremely weird not having seen/or talked to you in a whole week. And even though we'll be hanging out a lot it's gonna be different, and instead of being 30 seconds away you're 30 minutes away, but it feels like a lot further. I guess what I'm trying to say is that I really miss you.