Annie Are You Okay!?

I seriously and absolutely cannot believe Michael Jackson is DEAD! It was the weirdest thing EVER! You know? I was in the movies and I got a couple texts, I mean it was a total wave of shock...I don't know if anyone else gets waves of shock but I sure do. And I couldn't stop thinking about it I mean...it was MICHAEL JACKSON, right? Seriously, Michael Jackson was a GENIOUS. I think his music has really impacted EVERYONE in some kind of way. I remember when I was totally OBSESSED with the Thriller album. I think everyone's had a point in thier lives when they were obsessed with one of his songs/albums or just him in general. I mean like really...it's so weird that he's dead. he has done some totally crazy and weird stuff during his more recent years...honestly he WAS kinda crazy but he went through a lot in his life. do I believe he did anything inappropriate to those kids? no. do I think he was crazy? yes. come on being famous since you were 6 years old WITH abusive parents I would be kinda crazy too! but absolutely none of that can possibly take away from the fact that he was a MUSIC GENIOUS. his music is seriously going to live on FOREVER, he has had such a huuuuge impact on music. he set all the trends and is an inspiration to soooo many artists, if it wasn't for him we wouldn't have justin timberlake and chris brown! He is and always will be the king of pop. Rest in peace, seriously. Legend.

stuff.

perhaps putting awesome photography at the beginning of my posts will make them more intriguing...

I haven't blogged in days and I need to vent...venting is good. Last thursday I went to see Transformers with some friends and it was cool. I mean I was really into it at first but I am not an action-movie person so after a while I got bored and confused because let me tell you that movie is LONG. don't get me wrong if you love action and transformers then I think you'll really like this movie. and I LOOOOVE SHIA. And uhhh yeah then I went to mount shasta with aya and it was a blaaaaaaast. I love trampolines. and big friendly dogs. and horses. and watching aya motorcycle. and glow in the dark stars on the cieling. and watching REAL stars on the driveway with a pillow at midnight. and aya's lemony lemon sorbet. and the waterfalls. And I also realized that I really love long drives with funny people. and I love singing to the michael jackson songs they continue to play on the radio. yes.


ehhh I write too much. too much about nothing =/ ASDFGHJKL;' I don't like this blog sometimes. it's kinda stupid.

ahhhhhhhhh!

WTF I am sooo sick. godddd it really sucks. I feel like a freaking fire =/ last night I had a sinus headache and a fever and I woke up like 11 times last night! and then I woke up today (FATHER'S DAY) feeling crappy too. My sinus headache was gone after aspirin and nazil spray (I HATE nazal spray) but now it's starting to come back. and this is the worst fever ever. I was 101 ! I was eating otter pops all day and I was soo uncomfortable because I was either burning up or cold. not to mention I have a bad caugh. man WTF it's SUMMER! I should not be sick right now. I hope that this stupid fever goes away.
anyways, on a more positive note...yesterday I went to a summer camp reunion with some seriously amazing people that I love tons. it was SOOOOOOOOO fun. I cannot tell you how fun it was. we are crazy and insane, we had EPIC games of sardines and hide and seek in this huuuge school with secret passages and dark hallways and we just ran all over the place. I got to be reunited with my AMAZING cabin from last summer and it was seriously greattt. I had the best week of the year so far, leadership camp (see previous post) AND yesterday. but what a lame way to end this week with this stupid awful fever :( GO AWAY FEVER.

and now, get ready for the best seven minutes and six seconds you've evaaa seent.

MY AMAZING WEEK AT LC!

Okay so, I am HELLLA tired right now (kudos to me for actually being tired before 3 AM) but it doesn't matter because I have important thoughts on my week that need to be recorded. Okay so every year there is LC (Leadership Camp) at the beginning of summer and I couldn't a better way of kicking off my summer. It's kinda hard to explain to people who have never been, I mean you'll never FULLY understand until you go. no matter how well I try to explain it it's still going to sound rather peculiar to you. but anyways, all the kids going into student council the upcoming school year go to this camp for a week and it's lead by the high school staff (which I was a part of) all week long we cheer and compete, decorate, dress up in crazy costumes, and go all out with everything we do. if we were just walking down the street doing the things we do and dressing the way we dressed we would have gotten some crazy looks. it's somewhere where everyone is totally SILLY and fun and you can completely be 100% YOU. one of my favorite parts about camp is watching campers on day one being so silet and shy and then by day 2 thier voices are gone :) that's what I'm talking about. not to mention all the wonderful HS staff I had the pleasure of working/hanging out with this week. I can hardly WAIT until next year. It's going to be even more amazing than this year. I am really going to miss my LC, it's a deep part of me and I know that it's really helped so many people break out of thier shelll and truly learn how to become leaders. and the fact that I'm apart of something so rare to find is such a privalage. The spirit of LC will never die and niether will our dance parties, laughs, pictures, games of "honey i love you", CHEER WARS, eating mecca, and everything else LC has offered us. I feel great going into my summer now because of the way I started it off. LET'S GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO COUNCIL SEVEN! :)

Tyler made me a video!

BECAUSE WE'RE ON A BOAT.



tylerdotcom13 (11:14:42 PM): I LOVE HAVING MY THINGS BLOGGED ABOUT BY YOU!

Just Saying.

SIMS 3!

NO NO NO! THIS IS NOT OKAY. I TOTALLY BOUGHT THE SIMS 3 AND THEN I FIND OUT YOU NEED THE LEOPORD PACKAGE TO PLAY IT AND THAT COSTS 130 DOLLARS. :( now I don't know if I'll ever get to play :'( now my sadness is uncontrolable

Today was cool. Me and Aya rocked our In-N-Out hats EVERYWHERE!...


In the car!

Fair parking lot!

At the grocery store!

On a random ride we saw on the side of the freeway!

fun stuff man. fun stuff.


This week is going to be the bomb. I mean LEADERSHIP CAMP! So much ENERGY packed into one week! LET'S GO.

By the way, I don't like tumblr. I have one and it's lame and weird and it makes me feel suffocated and left alone, blogspot is way better. Just saying.

BYE!

OMG I JUST HAD TO SAY THIS

I AM SERIOUSLY SO EXCITED FOR LEADERSHIP CAMP IT'S NOT EVEN FUNNY OH MY GOD I COULD REALLY EXPLODE OF EXCITMENT AT THIS POINT. ASDFGHJKL;ASDFGHJKL;'ASDFGHJKL;'ASDFGHJKL;'ASDFGHJKL;'ASDFGHJKL;'

ASDFGHJKL;'

AHHHHHHHH, COUNCIL SEVEN! I AM SAVING MY VOICE FOR NEXT WEEK. YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY :D IT'S GOING TO BE THE BEST WEEK EVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

...random!

first of all, I downloaded shawnwashington's album music from mars...and I very very much enjoyed it. I think everyone else shall to so go to shawnwashington.blogspot.com and download that shizzzz.

raaaandom video anyone?




on a deeper note...

"it IS as bad as it seems, and they ARE out to get you."

I just noticed...well never mind actually I've always noticed this but I never actually vented about it. It's always on the back of my mind how much I worry and how much I think. like seriously I think I have a serious problemo with that. no one else seems to worry like I do. like, I ALWAYS expect the worst of a situation. when I don't know what's going to happen I just go from there and come up with some crazy idea of what's happening and then I make myself believe that it IS that bad and then I really DO believe it. it's like I expect the absolute worse to happen ev.er.y time. and then I get all upset and sad over something that I don't even know is tue or not. everything that is said to me is analyzed in my mind and thought about over and over. and then like I don't even know, my "intuition" is always messing with me. like, people say that you're supposed to listen to your intuition, but my intuition seems to be ALWAYS panicking and always has a bad feeling about stuff. so I don't know how to follow it. and what if something is really wrong? I won't know if it's real or not thanks to my confusing intuition. *sigh* when will I be able to trust my gut? I am so paranoid. -_______-

YAY.

I have a TEAM SHAWNWASHINGTON SHIRT.

seriously, that is what's up.

these days...

I was just randomly thinking, and...

I MISS OLD SHOWS. -___________- dude I swear:

EVERY TIME I flip the channel to MTV or VH1 it's ALLLLL FAKE "reality" shows about "finding love" or whatever. it's so ANNOYING. I mean at least the old MTV fake reality shows were a little bit better...like exposed or engaged and underaged or cribs or my own. laaaaaame. they need to show my super sweet 16...that show was what's up.

and DISNEY CHANNEL. is just wack. =/ these days, the best disney channel show is Phineas and Ferb. that show rocks. but like seriously...hannah montana, selena gomez, demi lavato, and the jonas brothers have all OFFICIALLY taken over the whole entire thing. the only other show they show frequently is Phineas and Ferb (the best one) and they BARELY show anything else like corey in the house or zack and cody. and nothing is funny. I neeeeever laugh when watching any of the shows on disney channel...except Phineas and Ferb. wizards of waverly place is the best out of the 4 that have taken over...hannah montana is not funny at all. and the JB I haven't seen enough of, but it's not hilarious or anything. and sonny with a chance isn't either. old shows were waaaaaaaay better. I miss lizzie mcguire, even stevens, so weird, etc...

Nickelodean isn't as good as it used to be. it's better than disney channel though. but seriously cartoons these days on TV are nothing compared to old cartoons, seriously. I don't think they ever will.

Old cartoons that totally and completely rocked and they need to show again:
Hey Arnold! Rocco's modern life. Rugrats. Ahhh! Real Monsters! captain planet. pepperan. weekenders. recess. fairly oddparents. braceface! power rangers. scooby dooby doo<3. tom and jerry. TOTALLY SPIES! angry beavers. dexter's lab. power puff girls. the proud family. sabrina the teenage witch (the cartoon too). CATDOG. foster's home for imaginary friends. samuri jack!. pokemon. clifford. kids next door.

okay so those are off the top of my head but there was hella more.

kbye.

SO...

mood(s): ANNOYED; hopeful; bummed; worried; happy; JUICED.

...last night was very weird. All my worries and fears were pretty much wrapped up into one dream. everything I was afriad of happened. and everything that I'm not looking forward to happened. hmmmm. but I'm cool.

anyways, oh tomorrow is the very last time my ENTIRE class and I will be together. sadness. I will miss them...



and sometimes stuff just happened to be recorded and put on youtube...
(like when me, dana, and elexis sang "hey there delilah" while we were listening to it on seperate iPods at movie night...)


and, well...this is ancient

It's been real.

k bye :)

alright...so you know what.

I don't really know what to talk about right now. Today I watched up for the second time, and I liked it better the first time...and then I went to a party. and then tomorrow I'm going to Elexis's party. awww yeah.

THIS WEEK! :D

SUNDAY!
kickin it at Lexi's house alll day with my friendsss

Monday
some random student council thing? well all I know is we get treated to lunch, haaaaay!

Tuesday!
nothing.

Wednesday!
the kindergarden promotion! tis the last time me and my class will be ALL togethor. awww sad.

Thursday
katie's graduation dinner, get to hangout with my cousinssss.

FRIDAY
MY TEAM SHAWNWASHINGTON SHIRT SHOULD BE HERE!

-and STAFF TRAINING FOR LC :)

Graduation!

I've been bloggin so much lately, I know. and okay, this is all gonna sound so cheezy and possibly repetitive. but I had no idea that graduation would bring me so much inner fullfillment and BLISS. I feel so lucky and LOVED and ACCOMPLISHED. I never want to forget this feeling or this day, it could only be described as amazing. to the class of 09, ...T H A N K Y OU ! you are SO amazing. I've been talking about this so much that I'm running out of ways to articulate it... anyways, you guys mean the absolute world to me. you ARE family. I feel so blessed to be a part of it. it has been a truly amazing journey and I can't believe it's over. but I'm so glad I spent it with you. you have shown me so much, you SHAPED me. each and everyone of you has effected who I am today. We ended up on a spectacular note and right now I am so full of BLISS and accomplishment...and it's all because of you. I'm going to miss you and everything but I'm happy that there are people like you going out into the world, because it is the beginning of turning our world around. I hope you all go out as a reflection of the amazing love and support that has been shown to us. please know that I adore you with all my heart and I will never stop loving you, my best memories ever were spent with you. I know we'll always be together spiritually, our bond is impossible to break. and I feel so fortunate because I know a lot of classes don't know what it means to be a family. thank you, thank you so much. I can't express how thankful I am or how much I love you in mere words, I don't think I'll ever be able to show you how much. Just know it's a lot. and that I love EACH and every one of you even if it might not seem like it sometimes, you each mean everything to me and I could talk about you as individuals for HOURS. I have this little "time capsule" (that's what I think of it as) in my mind, and in it are the moments I remember most. it's FILLED with memories and moments. amazing ones. sad ones. all kinds. but they all taught me something...and you all taught me something. this isn't the end of something amazing, it's merely the beginning of something amazing.

"Don't be sad that it's over, be happy that it happened."- Dr. Suess

don't ever lose touch with me! I will always support you, love you, and be here to not judge you, but to hear you out. because I have seen who you REALLY are despite what anyone thinks of you, and because I know you would do the same. please know that you are all loved a great deal, by myself and many other people. you are all beautiful and amazing human beings. whenever I'm struggling in the future I will always remind myself of you...and I know that will help me keep going. thank you. thank you for allowing me to give you my TRUST and not abusing it, for wiping my tears away, for giving me endless love and support, for teaching me about life, for cheering me up with your hilariousness, for CARING about me, having my back, and guiding me through this whole experience. I love you. I will miss you. I will never forget you. THANK YOU.<3


(this was also on my facebook)


oh and you know who I love? Monique.

andrea: MONIQUE! I love you so much. thank you so much for being so amazing. I'm so glad we're going to school together, we'll always have eachother's backs<3


monique: ANDREA! I love you too ! Yhu dnt even knoe . You have inspired me to go after my dreams and you have givin me a positive attitude ! You may not knoe this but I do admire you and look up to you

*tear*

random thoughts!

first off:

So long, farewell

Auf Wiedersehen, adieu


I'm done. It's great. It rocks. it's so WEIRD though...thinking about how things won't ever be the same again. I was so right, I AM gonna miss those boring days in science class, AND everything I hated I'm gonna miss. and I'm also pretty freaked about the future...I don't know. like, that's all I can say. because well, I DON'T know what it's gonna be like. I'm not very sad at all, I'm HAPPY. a little sad...but mostly happy and excited. I hope my friends that are off to different schools and I never lose touch. that'd be kinda devistating seeing that I'm leaving some of the most trustworhty and supportive people I know. and that they're also some of the people I am most comfortable around. it's tough man. dana and arii's AMAZING speaches both made me cry today. especcially arii. I love arii. yes. ahh it's just so...CRAZY! and INSANE, and surreal. but I'm happy. and I feel so fortunate that I'm a part of this group of people!

and on another note....I recently noticed that I WORRY to much. and I think it is a seriously issue I have. maybe not serious. but it's most definetely an issue with me. I remember what people say and how they act toward me PERFECTLY, it's not that I try...but I just do. so when people act/say something even if it's totally small and stuff...it just replays in my mind over and over. and then I assume stuff and jump to conclusions that are never really true, you know? it's so strange. but I do. and I need to stop, because sometimes the conclusions that I jump to make me upset and then I'm sad whennnn there's no need to be. I need to stop thinking so much into everything. seeeeriously. and worrying, that to. k yeah.

YEEEEEEEEEEEEE!



alright, seriously. UP was AMAZINGGGG. pixar has done it again. I think this was one of the best pixar moviessss. I totally L O V E D this movie. go see it. or else you can't be part of the people-who-have-seen-UP-and-are-now-changed-people club...



okay so yeah those were my random thoughts for the day...I think. actually yes. because if I have anymore today it'll be at night. and those will be my random thoughts for the NIGHT...if I have any. okay yes. bye. btw: I miss arlena.:'( and her mac laptop -__________-

I just had to say...

okay. after this, I'm gonna crash. but maaaaan. I hate saying goodbye. I'm going to miss being a LION. I feel so fortunate to have been a part of this amazing and loving community, I've experienced and learned so many things...and I feel extremely loved, cared-about, and supported. My class...wtf it is so wierd. I had a breakdown today. some of you I won't be going to school with next year. some of my CLOSEST friends, I won't be seeing next year at school:

Ambria. I've only known you for a year and a half, but I love you and depend on you so much. Like, when I'm talking to you...you are SO understanding it's ridiculous. and sometimes I laugh at stuff that NO ONE else laughs at because it's random and stupid, and YOU'RE the only person that laughs with me. sometimes we're the only ones laughing at anything. we have tooooo many inside jokes.:) oh and let's not forget our amazing common music interests, we stay giving eachother new music to listen to and stuff. OH and all the beats you have provided for the KOOLAID KID'S rap sessions at recess, and my own rap sessions at recess. I don't know...it's like when I come to school are grumpy and shxt seeing you makes me happier. because it feels good to know that I have a friend like you. I am going to miss you so much it's ridiculous. I love you. I love you. I LOVE YOU SOO MUCH. God.

Semhal. Wait...what? we're leaving eachother? you HAVE to be kidding me. I absolutely 100% CANNOT imagine my life without you. or school without you. WTF. you are...the absolute defonition of a real friend. REAL TALK. like, I think you have super powers or SOMETHING, because when I'm sad and crying...YOU seem to be the only one that TRULY cheers me up. it's effing amazing. and so are you. plus you have ALWAYS had my back, and NEVER left me behind or stopped being my friend. I am so so so thankful for you like I really can't put it into words. I just love you times five hundred trillion 22 billion 500 million 7 hundred thousand 80 thousand. yeah you get it. well yeah...thinking about not having you makes me so sad and depressed. SHIT. I just cussed. bad me. but really. I love you Semhal and I can't say it enough.

Kelechi. Oh my god. how is it possible? how do you do it? how do you manage to keep such a positive attitude and being able to FORGIVE so well? I can only discribe you as amazing. I wish I had more words to use. but you don't know how much you mean to me. you also have the amazing ability to TRULY cheer me up, make me laugh, and make me forget all about my stresses. school without you is going to be HARD. I want you to be there with me so bad. please don't ever think of yourself anything less than one of the most amazing people that has ever lived. because you tend to be harsh on yourself, and it saddens me. I just want you to know that i will ALWAYS have your back no matter what. I looooooove you. times every grain of sand on every beach. like...it makes me want to cry. we've had SO many memories. and there's so many stored in my mind that I can reply and reminisce on. god. like...the very first day I came when I was eight I sat next to YOU. you in your extensions and you let me use one of your shiny new pink walmart erasers. you are probably the nicest person ever. ever. ever. I'm sorry for being a stupid exclusive little girl sometimes back then. I'm going to miss you like crazy. you are so incedibly beautiful inside and out and I LOVE YOU.

THE GABINATOR (GABI) NOOOOOOOOOOOO! say it aint so, gabi. you're going to some school in SAN RAFAEL.I love you. so much. you are such a real friend to me. I'm with you all the time at recess. you have no idea how much I rely on you. you being taken away from me will be like loosing a part of myself :'( you are so sweet and nice and FUNNY, oh god. GABBY BOYYY! and, GOOD TIMES, GOOOOOD TIMES. hahaha. oh today when you started crying it broke my heart. I hate this. I love you. there's no way I can express any of this in words. but really, you mean the effing world to me. you are one of my realest and true-est friends. and, I look up to you. why? because you are so confident about yourself and don't have a low-self asteem but you're also nice to EVERYONE, and because you don't ever let anyone bring you down, you don't care when people say anything...like you don't even notice it. I however am not very confident about myself, do tend to have a low self esteem, and DO care what people say about me. and take it to heart. and it get's stapled in my mind. and I just want you to know that you are...I don't know what word to describe you with. this is so hard. it's like there are no words. You're my rock. I love you. I don't know what else to say.

Ariana I rememeber. in third grade. at recess when ramon ran over to me and handed me a note that said:

Dear Andrea,

I like you but I don't know if you like me.
(circle)

yes. no. maybe.

please tell me at lunch.

...well after recieiving this I went directly to you and kendall, the LOVE DOCTORS. hahaha. I will never forget it, I will never forget you. you have guided me on this journey. you always had advice and everything. god I love you so much. I'm sad. please don't drift away from me. I need someone like you to stay with me through the next four years. I know you are going to be extremely successful next year, I so know it. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. SO much.

And Troy. You are. amazing. I know your potential. I've seen YOU, when you want to be you are AMAZING, troy. please don't ever forget that. please please please. don't ever burry yourself with negative things. remain amazing. please make wise choices in highschool. I'm going to miss you like crazy. I truly hope we never lose touch. ever. I won't forget all the times we spent hanging out at your house, skating on high street, and just going to random places. Seriously, thanks. thanks for being one of my best friends. thanks for allowing me to trust you. I really don't want this to be goodbye. please don't tell me it's goodbye. I love you. and I don't know how I could possibly word that to express how much I do.

I love my class so much. I'm going to miss you. gonna miss this. but it's definetely time that we all move on but we'll always be friends, and we'll always have the amazing memories replaying in our minds. no one can take that from us. I know you're gonna go out and change the world. each and every one of you. I don't know how we did it...but we got here. we know what it's like to be at the highest of heights, and the lowest of...lows? well, you know what I mean. and we've OVERCOME so much. Thank you. thank you sooo much. you've been so amazing, supportive, loving and caring. not to mention funny. I will never forget ANY of you. I love each and everyone of you HELLA.


NEVER SAY GOODBYE♥

As we walk into the room.
With satisfaction in our eyes,
With laughter on our faces,
Yet a tear held deep inside.

When we look at each other,
We wonder what each will be,
We wonder what each will do,
But tomorrow we cannot see.

We look back through our memories,
We look back through our years,
We see a lot of laughter,
And recall a silent tear.

It’s so very hard to say good-bye,
It’s hard for us to let go,
But each has a separate dream,
As we turn down a separate road.

As we leave and go on,
We watch the time go by,
But yet through it all,
We’ll never say good-bye.

-Shannon L. Anderson


Okay. I'm done. I can't continue blogging about it.

felt like bloginggg.

as much as I tried hard not to, I have completely CHECKED OUT. I just want to graduate. I'm so tired of some of these teachers. one in particular. she got really mad at us today. and that's really not what we need right now. I mean just because some people choose not to cooperate and get this over with shouldn't stop the rest of us...send them out or whatever you need to do but it shouldn't affect the whole group. ughhh it is most definetely time to move on. I'm thinking about one jillion things at once...like, graduation and the fact that I'm leaving some of my closest and most trusted friends. I'm a little scared to loose touch with them. I rely on them so much, they help me get through the day and I'm not very far from going into panic mode. and I have absolutely no idea what next year will be like...or what the future will be like, which also scares me. ASDFGHJKL;'

ummmm

Anyplace is better.
Starting from zero got nothing to lose.
Maybe we'll make something.
But me myself I got nothing to prove.


i just thought i'd make a random post. and i'm not going to bother to capitalize my i's like i usually do because i dont feel like going all the way to the shift button to do so. i'm kinda tired of my blog. everyone else always has something to say and they sound intelligent and articulate and deep in thier blogs. and funny. but my blog is so random and not very deep and not all that interesting. i mean when i write a bunch of stuff it's just like about my day or something. cause when i write my deep thoughts i always think i sound stupid. i don't know if it's just me. i don't think anyone reads this. unless, you know i tell them i have a new blog post or something. yeah. ASDFGHJKL;'

ugh i have sleep problems.


yeah, well anyways. TOY STORY 3! ASDFGHJKL; x 1,000