...random!

first of all, I downloaded shawnwashington's album music from mars...and I very very much enjoyed it. I think everyone else shall to so go to shawnwashington.blogspot.com and download that shizzzz.

raaaandom video anyone?




on a deeper note...

"it IS as bad as it seems, and they ARE out to get you."

I just noticed...well never mind actually I've always noticed this but I never actually vented about it. It's always on the back of my mind how much I worry and how much I think. like seriously I think I have a serious problemo with that. no one else seems to worry like I do. like, I ALWAYS expect the worst of a situation. when I don't know what's going to happen I just go from there and come up with some crazy idea of what's happening and then I make myself believe that it IS that bad and then I really DO believe it. it's like I expect the absolute worse to happen ev.er.y time. and then I get all upset and sad over something that I don't even know is tue or not. everything that is said to me is analyzed in my mind and thought about over and over. and then like I don't even know, my "intuition" is always messing with me. like, people say that you're supposed to listen to your intuition, but my intuition seems to be ALWAYS panicking and always has a bad feeling about stuff. so I don't know how to follow it. and what if something is really wrong? I won't know if it's real or not thanks to my confusing intuition. *sigh* when will I be able to trust my gut? I am so paranoid. -_______-